boredom kills

yes,it's an interesting and understated facet of life.

Fun,pleasure,pain,love,betrayal are all well read about and widely acknowledged topics but wot about boredom?? Since im bored enough to write about it right now,i hope i'll be able to do justice to this rather crucial topic.

Boredom occurs when u've nothin to do and when's there's nothin ur looking forward to..

u wake up in d mornin..ur not happy,not sad,have no plans...so wot do u think about?

its a rather unpleasant 'state of mind'..its an idle mind,which as we all know can create havoc if not treated in time..

ur so bored that its an overwhelming feelin.Ur hungry and sleepy but boredom is perhaps the only feeling(if i may refer to it as a feelin)that can b more overwhelming than the 2 basic instincts of hunger and sleep.Ur so bored that the first thing in d morning that u do is to go through ur call list to find people that u might make plans with..not that u don have friends,but uve been feelin particularly choosy off late n decide to narrow down ur socialisin options to 2/3 people who are fun and at the same time intellectually stimulating..now thats a tough call..

so u call them while ur feelin guilty ,jobless,insecured and again bored all at the same time..so in a mesh of those complicated feelings u call up someone, hopin against hopes, that they will cheer u up or make a plan and then u'll find temporary solace in their esteemed company..yes,boredom makes u place those chosen 2/3 people on a pedestal that they might/might not deserve..

so well the plan's made but with certain underlined conditions which include meetin at a certain place and for a certain time. when u call someone in such circumstances and they agree to meet u on specified conditions,u feel lik a dog who's barking to get his masters attention so that he can go pee...how much worse does it get..!...wish u were a dog so that u could jus pee on their 100 dollar carpet to make them realise their mistake of not givin u attention at the right time..so yea well u feel worse than a dog who wants to pee....coz there's nothin that ur peein on d carpet is goin to prove to the person concerned.
u agree to meet them on their terms and conditions and feel happy and find that temporary solace,but the feelings of human dignity seem to vanish.So even this temporary solace is tainted with the feeling of being ultra helpless and jobless.by now uve had enough..not that pedestal persona better show u a REALLY good time..lol...but NO...boredom and bad luck go hand in hand..the plan's cancelled..!!...awwww...
u feel suicidal or murderous when the pedestal guy/girl decides to cancel the plan that u were looking forward to for the whole of last week...what do u do then??...(pee..no shutup thats not an option..thats for dogs)...u call em up to say really mean things..(but in temporary phases of sanity u decide against it coz well although that pedestal guy is makin u feel worse than a dog but still its not him to blame..not entirely..theres the rain..esp the pune rain..that starts only when ur all dressed up and ready to make a move towards that temporary solace...'the rain god in pune is definitely sadistic in nature'.).. to hell with sanity..u decide to call up the person who cancelled d plan and shout at him and say all nasty shit which u might/might not mean..and they obviously don take it well coz they cant comprehend the reason of ur overreaction to begin with..But wot reason can u give them neway .?...i barked at u lik a rabid dog coz u called off the plan i was looking forward to for 7 long days and that makes me feel lik shit coz i suck at boredom management....yea so wot..its not as stupid as it sounds..if people can have anger management issues..if they can have ego hassles..they why cant i have boredom management issues..i do..and i accept it..im sorry..

i know i lost u coz i had those issues..but would it be more justified if it was plain mad anger or ego...no it woulDnt be..atleast in my case i like u..i placed u on that pedestal and i looked forward to ur plan for 7 days..and u called it off...coz of the rain or ur mood or whatever other contingency...don let rain god/devil do this to us...!...it might sound funny..but yes ive lost a friend a two coz of this..what d heck...so wot if i get bored..i still remain choosy and choose to hang out only with those pedestal ppl...now those pedestal ppl have to adjust to this seemingly inhuman or trivial issue of my boredom..c'mon...understand if u can..

but boredom can kill..it leads to anger,helplessness,worthlessness,and all o that stuff..take it seriously...!...and well ..forgive me for being bored and holdin u responsible..i wish was a dog..they don even lose their master for peein on that carpet..sigh..