the mind wo(A)nders

i dunno whether its a writers block or is it my inability to describe true emotions in words,
do i not have d courage to give an intricately bitter and hateful description of sumthing that is conservatively considered sacred.
why r sumthings jus presented to us in a way which leaves us with no option but to accept them and respect them.
the institution of marriage,the importance of family and the issue of a single sexual partner are topics that you'd rather not debate against ,when in India or if u do then be prepared to be condemned.. to be looked down upon like u were a filthy alien who was castin doom

u can't n u shouldn't debate the "sanctity"..of such things in d interest of ur own mental peace ..plus topics like these are so close to ones heart that its no use discussin them in d public domain and gettin them analyzed(uselessly) and criticized(unhealthily)by ppl who are fortunate enough to not have faced such dilemmas in life

there r somethings that u can neither live with nor live without
is it such a sin after all,to try n not succeed in getting along with family?
is it such a sin to think about another person when ur love's not around?
is it such a sin to not want to marry?
is it such a sin as to consider marriage futile yet live with the person u love?
is there anythin at all which could be wrong for one n all,does human mind n body not differ at all when is respect of these "universal guidelines"or these "facts" which are hardwired in us from d moment we are born..are we never to question d basis of these "divine principles"..are we to marry if we are born..is marriage the only sacred bond..is love not enough?

time's passing by

sometimes,too soon in life,we realize that the past was past,and the future is too near

the mere reflection of the fact that i'm growing up hits hard like fallin with a thud.

i've held on for too long,to the joys of childhood and the reckless dedication to some lost cause.

how doing that dint cost much then,how precious every moment has now become.

how now,every move's to be calculated with the tickin hands of the clock

how wastin time would mean a wasted life in times to come,how with growin up,time becomes more important and how its importance highlights the lack of it.how i now will pay for every wrong turn,how i no longer will be excused for being immatured.

how there are things to be done,and taken care of,how i need to be more independant,how people lose their value ,how morality becomes relative,how experiences lead to a broader vision and how life now has to take a definite course,how there are purposes to be served

i think i'm growing up.