why??? what to do??? and why??

wot to do......keep goin ahead or move back and also never ever look back..or move on now and come back later..or will i be allowed to come back later..
i'm good...absolutely good...then why carry on..the baggage from the past and open old wounds or worse create new ones..some people are not worth trustin..or may be they can be trusted for good and bad things but not the worst things....so wots life?wots love?
love..is it jus havin a good time..or making a good friend..knowin someone or letting ur guard down and letting them know u..
is it about all ups and downs or all ups or all downs..wots the right time to call it off?whats the right reason to call it off?
do we decide the the reasons or does somebody else?
do circumstances play d role?or is it all the game of time...does time decide or u or me or is it all pre decided to make us learn and move on.?
if u move on..then will i also move on..and if i move on then will u also move on.?
whats moving on..?becomin a different person..or becomin more clearly urself?
how did u affect me ?and how did i affect u..?
lol..why do u remember things which i want to forget.?
why do u tell me things which i'd given up anything to hear back then but u tell me all this now wen im least bothered about knowing them..then y do u still concern me?
why do u still hold me hostage?
why don u let me go?
why?
even now its like u want something completely different from wot i want..i wanna talk and so do u..the quality and quantity of conversation wanted are different for both of us..
when u ask me to give up past and i act like wot am now..u don want me say things the way i say it now..and when i talk about past u don't want to open old wounds...
why is it that we think about the same things but in entirely different ways..
why is it that we're both passionate and about the same things and in v different ways..
are u like me or are u not?
what are u hiding and why?
why do i have to hide things which i want u to know?
why?

lol...why is it that the things i loved then, i cant stand now..why?
why do u have to control and lay down terms when u claim to be the patron of individuality..?
why do i have to give up things ...anything at all.?
what is it.?
conflict of egos or conflict of interests?
if...i wont but even if i let my ego go..will u let urs go...i know u wont..then why would i..lol i wont..
why wouldn't u know that u had a part to play in wot happened to me..and that u shud have been there..but if u were there then ..then will i still be wot i am...would i have learnt the lessons that i think i did..
what happened to all those lessons..was not trusting u again and being immune and remaining unaffected by ur presence the foundation of all those lessons?
then why are we still in touch and like u said not able to disconnect and not able to let go.
what i gather out of all this is that both of us have moved on and let go..let go of each other but not how we made each other feel..
i wanted to be friends..i told u that...
but u said that u cant be friends coz that wud mean giving up on the feelings that i perhaps brought out in u...givin up on those bful feelings..lol..and thats the best part..i want to be friends but like u said u cant be..then that leaves me with no option...
i was urs once and u let it go...let me go..and now when im back...want to be back as a friend ..u dont want to let go..dont want to let go of those feelings which were there not bcoz i was a friend..
so u have let me go...but not those feelings..
i cant take away from u wot is rightfully yours..
happy to know that i affect u...unhappy to know that u cant be friends..happy to know the reason bcoz of which u cant be friends..
i can be friends...perhaps it'll be difficult coz of the reasons u quoted but im tired of feeling.feeling for u..i wont ..i cant say i don't..but i wont..i wont allow myself to fall again...fall for u again..